I wish you would come home

Sometimes i find myself still waiting still watching

Hand hovered over a doorknob or gaze glanced over an association

I loved you, i wish i could of shown you how much i did

I wonder if their was anything i could of done to make you stay

But probably not

Is their anything mine? Is their anything that can hold my hand

Or stay with me

Or just sit with me for a while?

I wish i could strip my body of its skin and flesh and bones to reveal the heart ache Of the ever growing bleeding wound inside of me, bleeding and bleeding all over the floor

Our floor

I wish you could give me minimums or maybe to have given

Can i be anything more than what i was created to be?

I feel like i am all heart ache and bones and muscle memories

I want to show you how i feel but i cant paint the words out

I cant show you my heart like i wish to

To show you and give you my love

I am so fragile but i am so hardened like a spiked soft little creature

Snuffling sniffling little thing, soft underbelly and prickly prackly spikes on his back

I want to hold unto you, so you wont ever go

I want to rub my face on your arm and feel your skin and love you

I feel teary eyed and soft lavender emotion and the pain of loving too sweetly

Too sweetly too softly i am soft yet not soft enough

Not soft and sweet enough to be cherished but more as a breeze

Grasp me hold me in your hands make me feel real